why did you leave me chimmi yangzom?

She came by, kissed my gentle heart and filled all the places around me with bliss but left as fast as she came by leaving me in a sheer distress. The day she saw this world, I was the happiest man in this world. I never asked god to give her the wealth of the world nor did I beg to bestow her with all the happiness of life and yet god took away the very little thing of the poor girl. All she had was a little breathe which she dearly held on and with every minute god took them bit by bit. She was begging, her pale face gathered the last bit of energy and cried thousand times but every time she begged, the more god took her away. She was so cute, so gracious and so tender that even the hell could have sobbed for her but to god, she seemed like a piece of flesh in front of a pack of hungry wolves. She lit up everything around me and I have been so happy since that very day I got her. I feared keeping her in my laps and holding her for the reason that I may not be separable form her. So close I was to her that every smile made me in love with the loveliest of all things and every cry of pain rushes through my veins that tears of blood oozes out from me. I have made so much of promises to her. The gift box keeps waiting for her first birthday and will wait forever. The slide in the park, I have promised to take her now is a nightmare area which once I longed to take her so much. Though my promises has seen the light of the day, she never lived up a day to see my promises fulfill. Today in the embers of her sinister smile, I cry, I curse and hate myself a lot why I fell in love with her so much. Had that not happened I would have not been in so much trauma as I am going through just now. That serene morning, her calm quiet face lie on the ICU bed. A peek through the door glass and I slowly saw my dear taking the last smile at me. She was an angel and was going back to her home. I cried, I begged, I protested but who was to listen to me, even my dear did not think what will happen to me if she was to leave me and I had to accept the cruel truth of life. By the time I realized myself, she was out cold in my laps.
My dear I would have been a clown for you, made myself a horse and taken you for a ride on my back as an elephant but chimmi yangzom, my dearest niece why did come to this world just for 93 days?