Monday, August 30, 2010

Chimmi Yangzom still lives on...

I had given up the day I lost Chimmi Yangzom. My niece smiled in silence, talked to herself and today only the embers of her smile shadows over me. Since a week then i started to think that if god takes away from you, he wont be that selfish 'not enough to grant you a wish'. My eldest sis-in law was expecting a child that month when Chimmi breathed out her last. Though Kinaly's (2nd eldest bro) Chimmi is now no more but exactly a week later I saw my self in the same ICU room where i held Chimmi out cold but this time at the struck of midnight, Kinxa's (sis-in law) labor pain was too much and in hours a new life breathed out. I was full of awe and believed that justice has been given to Chimmi. I am so happy that she is back again and that too in the form of Kaka's (eldest bro) daughter. The tragic loss of Chimmi is terrible but the new life awaiting to say 'hi uncle' runs deep into my viens and smiles are all over again. It is the best part of the story. I am rejuvinated now and my promises to Chimmi is going to be fulfilled by this little being so beautiful and full of grace. I beg to god, I beg him 1000....times to give her life, give her charm, give her beauty and give her everything in life and I promise that I will do all the good things in life just for her sake. You took what Chimmi did not wish for and now do not take my happiness away.
This time, I will unwrap the birthday box that waited for Chimmi. My new girl will once again go for the slide in the park, swing around, hear my fairy tales and ride on my back. Her innocent little brother doesnt allow anyone to come around and even to him I envy a lot as she is Chimmi that breathed cold in my laps and had come back for me again. I am so happy, Chimmi came, so fast that she did not even hav a time for us but now as fast as she went by, she came back again. This time....Thank you tandin wangmo (the new born, i assume her to be my chmmi), you are back to relive and rewrite a beautiful story with me.....


(a continuation to "chimmi yangzom why did u leave me alone"....from the journal i maintain everyday. So happy that I have got another neice and she is the replica of what i lost)

1 comment:

  1. Jimmy, life is certain and dealth is so uncertain. Perhaps very one should obey the laws and it is just matter of time not choice. I know it is so painful yet ivevitable to every one. This is really a touching and yeah unselfish tributes Chhime. Nice write up and appreciated for your rememberance...

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